Goals and Dreams

For our sophomore advising colloquium, I'm supposed to come up with answers to this set of questions:

How do you perceive of your relationship to dance?
Do you feel like a maker? an athlete? an artist?
How if at all has this identity shifted since coming to OSU?
What are you excited about studying?
Where do you dream of being in 5 years from now?
What are some of the obstacles you feel are standing in your way?


Okay, so... Here's my attempt to answer this. (This probably will turn into some sort of rant)

My relationship to dance varies. I like to move. I like the feeling of propelling through space. I like turns and leaps, which reflects that. Sometimes I'm discouraged. Postmodern dance both frustrates and inspires me. Same for ballet. I haven't found my niche yet.

If I had to choose between maker, athlete, and/or artist, I would without any doubt choose artist. I've never considered myself a maker. I generate material through improvisation. Choreography doesn't come so well. Dance is athletic, I guess. I go to the gym for that sort of thing though. I don't like to categorize myself as an athlete.

If anything, I am a human. That stands first.

I have always been a human, and always have been. My identity hasn't shifted too significantly since I came to university. I discovered improvisation. I'm excited about studying video dance. And exploring new things in general.

In five years I'll be 24. Right now, I hope that I'll be making plans to settle down, or already be at that point. At 24, I want stability. It's tricky though. I mean, I can see myself married and teaching dance on top of another part time job. Ideally I'll be involved within some performing arts venue or art gallery. I want to promote art to the public, and make it more accessible. At the same time I would love to perform if I had the opportunity. I'm not sure if that's something I want to strongly pursue though.

I don't believe much will stop me from teaching dance. As far as gallery work/art-dance promotion goes, I think I just need more experience. Maybe an internship. Performing professionally though... being human might stop me. I want a family one day. I want a house. And a dog. And a guy who ISN'T a dancer. I'm not sure how I would juggle those lifestyles.

I don't feel that ambitious. Maybe one day on a whim I'll head out to some auditions. I'm not going to make that my lifestyle though.