Women's Studies brings up a lot of issues about identity and sexuality and sexual identity. As a woman taking a course in Women's Studies, I feel that all of the content applies to me. This is troubling-I can't analyze any information objectively.
Without revealing too much personal information, I think it would alright to put it out there that the male penis really scares me. It's ugly, and I'm not sure where or who I learned that from. It even offends me sometimes.
The homosexual and heterosexual penis really are no different. They're both sexual. Because heterosexuality is most commonly recognized as a standard (not sure I agree with this one), homosexuals focus on their sexual identities a lot. I think heterosexuals would talk about it just as much if they didn't think it was "normal" or if people harassed them about it. In our society the heterosexual has nothing to justify. (maybe they do? maybe no one should justify a thing!)
Anyway, I see a lot of sexually charged work in the dance department. There is probably a more open gay community here than in other places, and this doesn't make me uncomfortable. The very idea of the penis is just so awful to me though! I don't want overlook any dance with homosexual references because of my phobia.
I'm afraid of masculinity maybe. I'm afraid of giving into stereotypical male traits that I don't like. My professor talks about gender identity and I clearly fall into the stereotypical female category. This means that I will "not succeed as a career woman." I won't succeed at all if I act like myself.
It's tough when who you are is who you are. I am a woman who acts like a woman...
